“But mostly, I was crying because I was suddenly very aware of the fact that it was me standing up in that tunnel with the wind over my face. Not caring if I saw downtown. Not even thinking about it. Because I was standing in the tunnel. And I was really there. And that was enough to make me feel infinite.”—
the best thing about this quote, is that I can imagine Shayn and I going to ‘our’ tunnel, and sitting there crying, both happy and sad because that was one of the best nights of my life and I would indeed feel infinate.
“I’m a circle incomplete, I’m a heart that barely beats, all the memories stay forever like tattoos. I’m a star without a sky, hello with no goodbye, I’m the dreams we had that never will come true, thats me with no you.”—Bowling For Soup <3
I am overly emotional and have a really baaad jealousy problem. Like not in the way that I will lasoh out and treat anyone like shit, just as in, my feelings are really hurt…like right now. And no one really did anything, its just there a two people I try to talk to all the time, but then I leave them alone because even from 1000 miles away it feels awkward, and they dont ever really seem to want to talk, or maybe they are busy.
But then I read these posts that are put up, and they talk to this other person (the one Im jealous of) ALL the time. Like yeah, Im 1000 miles away, but I do have a phone and we can text, I mean come on they already spend a ton of time together anyways. So why not try to talk to me a little more.
And it wouldnt be that big a deal if they hadn’t told me that I stopped talking to them.
Gah. See its stupid, my feelings are just hurt. Im not mad, and I’ll be over it by the end of the night.
If you were the lady from The Walking Dead, and you didn't know if your husband was dead or alive, but you thought he was dead, would you sleep with his partner? Then, if you did, and your husband showed up, would you be a total bitch to your husbands partner and try to make him pretend it never happened? cuz, thats messed up, you gotta explain yourself without being a total bitch, cuz if you are a total bitch, he is gonna fuck someones shit all up... but that guy was a woman beater, so he deserved it... the end :)
Okay first of all, no I wouldn’t, considering it wasn’t even a month!
and that it was his best friend, and that I didnt see my husband dead with my own face holes.
Second, Laurie is indeed a bitch to Shane, but has the right to be because Shane told her that he say Rick die. Because in truth he had wanted her from the begining. That is why she was so mad.
People who are mean to you win, is because you let them know that they got to you. Even if it gets to you, its better to pretend that it doesn’t. Laugh it off, because then you win and they are still pissed off because they have nothing better to do.
1. My beautiful daughter, Lakai, and all of the joy and love she brings to me daily. For the fact that she has saved me from myself, and that no matter what happens, if I have her, I know that I will be okay.
2. For my wonderful husband, Shayn, and the fact that he finds a way to put up with me no matter what, and always finds a way to make me smile even if it is last minute.
3. For my amazing sister. Whom I do not have all the right words to explain how thankful I am for her, and that she is who she is and that I have someone to believe in, most of all I am thankful she is strong and determined.
4. For the people that were brought into my life, and have treated me like family, their kindness and patience with me, I love you all.
5. For my online bestest loverbutt, I am thankful one of us took up the nerve to recommend music to the other.
6. For the food, warmth, and all the excess crap that I have.
I only hope that everyone will be able to find something to be thankful for.
“We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into a mutual weirdness and call it love.”—Not only do I love this, but it reminds me of Jim and Pam from the office haha I love them so much
I assure you, you would be bored out of your mind.
Here, I’ll show you.
I get woken up by my husband alarm at 530 am, get rolled over and listen to him as he moves around in the dark trying not to wake me. During this time I contemplate getting up, making coffee, and cleaning up before my daughter awakes and 830. I poke a toe out, yeah thats not happening. My husband kisses me, I snuggle up to Lakai and fall back asleep.
830 Lakai wakes up, says GOOD MORNING MOMMY, LAKAI SLEPT GOOD! (every morning she says this XD) She then decides on a movie, I put it in the vhs in our room and hide back under the covers. Right as I fall asleep again I hear “WHAT HAPPENED MOMMY WHAT HAPPENED!!!) Of course I have no idea what happen, so I roll over and pay attention.
After she gets bored with the movie, or if we finish it, I get up and make her a bowl of cereal, magic cereal, or scrambled eggs with syrup, and if I am lucky enough she will eat it all.
We then sit on the couch after I make a pot of coffee, and turn on Calliou. (she sings all the words, and yells and hits me if I attempt to sing along as well.)
ITs about 10 by then, so I pick up around the house a little bit and mope around about the additional cleaning I’ll have to do through out the day. I get on facebook and play a game that I hate and hope that my best friend is online.
I just want to see Shayn, and his lunch is at 11.
If he does come home I turn of my computer, trying to pretend I haven’t gotten on yet (some days I forget and he laughs) I ask, or sometimes force him to eat, its for his benefit. We sit, we eat, he complains, I complain, we watch foreign game shows on the telly.
He leaves, I get back on face book to play that game I hate again. I feed Lakai Lunch and try to convince her to play and not watch tv. I go out to the garage for laundry, she follows thinking I am leaving her forever, she then throws dirty laundry in the dryer while I’m trying to fold.
(sends text messages to people she wants to talk to and misses.)
no one replies.
Goes back inside, and depending on the day, just sits on the couch with fb and dumb game, and cleans up inbetween game time. OR goes strait to work on the house.
Thinks it feels like time has stopped, and 245 will never come soon enough.
Plays with Lakai, gets screamed at and hit, thinks my daughter hates me.
Shayn comes home, I tell him about my boring day. we watch rescue me, or weeds or the office.
thats pretty much my day. see, boring, but I love it.
12 AM and it’s happening again. I’m here in bed, where it’s so cozy and warm, and still I cannot sleep. It’s nothing new, my thoughts run wild, my teeth hurt, and I can’t get comfortable, but none of that matters when I am laying next to him. I drive myself crazy, then I look over, and his face is so peaceful, his breath even, and it calms me. The feeling that any time I move he moves closer, or he reaches for me, that’s a good feeling, I love it.
It’s why I come to bed even though I won’t fall asleep until two AM, when my daughter comes in and wakes me again and then finally I can fall asleep comfortably.
I love it, I love the feeling that the night brings. The togetherness and the sense that it makes with my feelings and thoughts.
Young people say that having a child ruins you life or brings it to an end because you won’t be able to do all of the things you always wanted to do. I think that all depends on the person, if you are going to think negatively about your pregnancy, then its going to be a bad experience.
I had a beautiful baby girl right before I turned 17. I was pregnant my entire junior year, and I was scared shitless. About everything, I even thought about adoptions because of everything I was already going through. But, even with everything going on, I found a way to be okay with the situation and told myself that it was going to be okay. I love my daughter with all that I have, and I wouldn’t change anything I went through. High school was hard, my home life sucked, and the people around me weren’t always supportive, but I always kept my head up and made it through. To be honest the only reason I made it through anything was because of her.
And the whole not being able to do anything you wanted to do afterwards, its not true. Anyone can do anything they put their minds to, as long as they have the patience and determination.
And to those who don’t have kids, good for you, but don’t judge those that do. It’s not your place. All people are different, and things happen, just because they didn’t happen to you doesn’t give you the right to think badly of the other person, you don’t know anybodys story.
Got up early! And without feeling ucky or like a jerk mom. Lakai wanted eggs, syrup, juice and ABC’S on haha its been a good morning so far. Happy that the both of us are in good moods, now just to clean up my pigsty of a house. And wait for my buttface to get home.
“I’ve got your cure right here, is that what you wanna hear? I’ve played the fool too many times, I’ve been catching up for all my life and it seems it gets harder to believe, it gets harder, but be honest, if the sun don’t shine tomorrow, then we’ll survive.”—Bayside
Has become my favorite thing to talk about with my husband. He bought me the first 3 volumes of the graphic novel for our anniversary in June, and I have been obsessed ever since. I have read every volume since then (except 13 because that is released on the 23!) Of coarse I was psyched when I heard that there was going to be a tv show, and the show is good, but I have to say I’m disappointed.
Maybe its because I fell in love with all of the characters in the comic, came to an understanding, and I know that its not that far into the series of the show, but I think they have already changed too much.
When I heard that they were changing some things so that people who are just starting the comic, I understood, but they added characters (all of which I don’t like very much) and changed one of them completely.
I guess I just like to complain.
And obviously I’m going to love the comic more, thats just how I am.
None the less, I am excited for the new episode on Sunday. :)